Sometimes it is hard to practice what you preach. I am such an advocate for others and often encourage them to be the best version of themselves, but it is so hard for me that cheerleader for myself. I usually let fear (of many different things) get in the way. I know that this is something that I know other people struggle with. Why is that? How is it that I can encourage others to be the best version for themselves, but it is a challenge to do it for myself?
What I have learned through podcasts, speakers, and from my therapist is that it is all perspective. I do not value myself as much as I value others. I know that I have the tools and can have the determination to accomplish everything that I want, but I do not value myself enough to achieve this. I am someone who is a big dreamer. I have big plans for my life and so many things that I want to accomplish. I am also passionate about so many different things and try to tackle all of these things. I love everything that I do and want to be able to do other things that I am passionate about. People have often told me that I do too much, but I know that I can. The times that I struggle and see why people tell me that I am doing too much is on days that I procrastinate. You know what I am beginning to learn is that procrastination, for me, is a form of self-doubt. I procrastinate because I do not believe in myself enough to accomplish what I know I can achieve. Often everyone says that they focus better when they delay. For a long time, I thought this was true. After listening to “The Skinny Confidential Podcast,” they had a speaker to discuss procrastination. He said that by procrastinating, we are making it so we can not achieve what we want to achieve. I am putting myself into the mentality for failure. I know that the best quality work is no made if I procrastinate. This is something that I am trying so hard to work on—all of it. I love learning and growing. Though every day will not be perfect and I often fall back into my old ways, each day is a new opportunity to reset and be the best version of yourself. My new year’s resolution this year was to be the best version of myself. This was the first year that I did not make a resolution list. As long as I am making a conscious effort to be the best version of myself, that is all I can ask for.
Enough about me, I know that there are so many people who have dreams and often feel that they are failing themselves. This is what I have to say. Take a moment each day to set your intentions. Starting your day with good intentions will help start the day with your eye on the prize. Make a list stay organized. This is something that I need, and the second I fall off, I can tell because my life feels so chaotic for no reason. Now, this is the hardest, BELIEVE IN YOU. Value yourself. Self-love is so important, not just self-care but self VALUE. If you do not believe, like really honestly believe, in yourself, your dreams are just dreams. You have to think that you are only as worthy as every single person you uplift and encourage. This is hard and is something that I am trying to work on every day.