I put on the show
Put the sparkly red coat and held the big staff in my hand
Paraded around
Tons of eyes twinkling at me, looking at me from the crowd
Almost like little stars in the dark sky
Tricks and flips galore
I wowed them, until they couldn’t believe it no more
And in the end,
They threw their bouquets at the person with the whips
Not me, the one who ran the show
I was a clown who turned that smile upside down
Only in the private circus tent I had
Because during the show, I paraded the winner even more
Beloved they are, they have been here so long
My smile faded away as soon as they were gone
I wiped off the show paint, took off the suit
Looked in my mirror and felt like a failure
I spend my nights gazing at the stars above
Asking myself what I could have of done
To be better
To win their affection and love
Nothing will change it, not even my sparkly new gloves
So as I lie in my bed
I took off the day and stayed numb from the pain I felt that very night
Because tomorrow, I had to do it again
Wake up and put on the costume
Perform the worlds wonder
Not be the chosen one
But that’s okay, because all is said and done
