Before COVID-19, I literally hung out with my boyfriend every single day. Not only do we work together, but we would also spend all of our free time together. Whether we went out to eat, cuddled and watched movies, or hung out with my dog, we were always together. And when we weren’t together, we were always FaceTiming. As we all know, the coronavirus has affected all of us and our relationships. I immediately decided to put myself in quarantine just for the safe being of others and my loved ones around me.
Personally, I don’t leave my house at all. My mom goes out and does all the necessary errands that it takes for us to survive inside. I only leave my house to go to my backyard, driveway and front yard to walk my dog. My boyfriend, on the other hand, basically does all of the errands for his household. It’s safe to say that everybody has been handling this issue differently. Some people either decide to wear gloves/masks or not to. Others decide to go out for unnecessary reasons, putting others around them at risk. I personally didn’t feel safe seeing him at all if other people in his household were going out. And yeah, he did get kind of annoyed and upset but I really didn’t care because, at the end of the day, I would much rather be safe and not see him for a couple of months than to risk one good day with him.
Being in quarantine reminded me how much I love being alone. Before, when we would always hang out, I felt weird being alone and found myself being bored all the time. Once I started getting used to being by myself, I basically neglected my boyfriend for a good amount of time in order to watch TikToks and focus on my Animal Crossing Island. At times, I would find myself being aggravated at the fact that he would want to talk to me because I got used to being alone all over again.
Sometimes I would stop and ask myself, “Am I a sh**ty girlfriend?” But then I would find him doing the same thing too. Sometimes he would let me know that he’s not going to respond because he’s playing video games until 2 in the morning with the boys. And then other nights, I would get annoyed that he wouldn’t stay up until 2 in the morning and virtually watch K-Dramas with me. We began to do things that we would never do before all of this. So I guess in the end, neither of us really win.
I kept reminding myself that my time is valuable. Whether it means that I’m going to cuddle up in bed with my dog and ignore the entire world or talk to him on FaceTime for 5 hours. Regardless, neither of us are “bad” to one another. We’re simply just trying to adjust to all this craziness going on around us.