Taking the Leap (and freaking out a little)
When I decided to study abroad in Rome, I was terrified. I’d never done anything completely on my own before, and the idea of flying across the world without a single familiar face felt overwhelming. Everyone told me I was brave, but most days, I didn’t feel brave at all. I just felt scared, scared of being lonely, scared of missing out, and scared that I wouldn’t find my place here.
But once I arrived, I realized I wasn’t really ever alone. Even from thousands of miles away, my friends were still with me in so many ways.
What I Packed Emotionally
Kayla taught me motivation. Back home, we used to take long walks together to talk through our weeks, and now we still do, just over WhatsApp, every Tuesday. The connection is always spotty, but chatting about our totally different lives while I get lost through the streets in Rome, feels like a piece of home.
Erin showed me how important it is to put myself in uncomfortable situations, and I carry that lesson with me every time I step into something new, whether it’s exploring a neighborhood alone or starting a conversation with a stranger. I even brought a photo of us that sits on my desk, reminding me that it’s important to take the leap, it means experiencing things I never imagined I would have the opportunity to.
Tara taught me that laughter and optimism can get you through almost anything. Before busy weeks, we used to exchange sticky notes with encouraging quotes and inside jokes. I brought a few of them with me, tucked into my notebooks. Whenever I feel homesick or overwhelmed, I read one and instantly feel lighter.
And Emma is the reason I packed the bright blue Jellycat elephant she gave me before I left, clipped on the outside of my backpack, for the duration of my 19 travel hours to get here. It might seem small, but it brings me comfort on days when I miss home. She always reminds me that no matter what situation you’re in, there’s always something to smile about, and she’s right.
The Version of Me They Helped Build
In so many ways, my friends shaped the version of me that came to Rome. Their lessons have become part of who I am, and carrying those pieces of them makes me feel them with me, even from across the world.
What Distance Taught Me About Love
More than anything, this experience has made me appreciate the people waiting for me back home. Distance has shown me how much love surrounds me. The kind that doesn’t fade just because of time changes or missed FaceTime calls. I think about how lucky I am to have people who remind me who I am when I start to doubt myself, and who make coming home something to look forward to.
Never Really Alone
Studying abroad alone has been one of the hardest, but most rewarding things I’ve ever done. And honestly, the truth is, I never really did it alone. I brought my friends with me in the memories, in the lessons, and in all the small reminders of love that remind me of home wherever I am.