Is heartbreak nothing more than a body count?
People tell me to keep track
Know where I have been
But where I have been seems to be exponential
Heaven forbid one comes back in a way unexpected
Should I stay away from those who stay close?
I want to avoid the daily confrontations
Past mistakes that I could not have predicted
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Can’t you pretend?
Can’t you pretend to like me?
I’m only mean because I’m hurt
It makes you less charming that way
When I cut your lies with harsh words
That way you won’t try to hurt me again
I suppose you always will in a way
I come back not because I like you
I hate being alone more
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So should I?
Should I settle for something wrong?
Just so for a moment I can pretend you are who I wish you to be
But you will never be them
You can’t
Well you can,
but you won’t
At least not with me
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But why?
Why not with me?
Am I unlovable?
I’m not going to make you tell me you love me
You invested no more than a day
So how can I even love you by now?
But you won’t give me a chance
Not really…
Yet you wish for me to give you everything I have
What will you do with it? Will you enjoy it?
Does the world expect this?
Do I even want to do this?
What IS this?
Oh, that’s right…
Nothing more than a body count
I forgot
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