I am currently almost one month out from graduating from college and tbh, I do not care about school as much as I did for the past seven semesters. This is a mixture of crisis, tiredness, adulting, and realization.
Crisis
I am have a current crisis that college itself is almost done and I am going to forreal need to be responsible. Like what? Who am I? Can I justify going to the grocery store looking like trash to eat junk food after college? I am also having a current crisis that my best friend is leaving me and god knows the next time i’ll see her!
Tiredness
I am in a constant state of tired. Some days are worse than others, but I am SO TIRED ALL THE TIME…no matter how much iced coffee I have, it just does not keep me up anymore. This has led me to just be the biggest procrastinator EVER.
Adulting
Ya girl has a job and man, I gotta start making that money – thus causing me to work more so I can be somewhat stable after I graduate from college. But working for eight hours and also completing homework is so not the biz, you can catch ya girl sleeping instead.
Realization
I had a moment of realization that I am growing up and closing a chapter in my life – a chapter in my life that I nurtured with studying, being apart of clubs, and being the best student I can be – but, I can’t remember the last time I did something out of the box. I have been closing the books and spending time outdoors and being spontaneous, because when I start working a full-time job when will I be able to go out midday on a weekday and do something I want to do?
I started to fall back from the mentality that I am a student, the motivation is still there to finish this semester on a good note but a part of me just wants to set my priorities elsewhere.