I wrote this for my personal blog and decided to share my experience in quarantine along with some personal reflection.
Its been almost two full weeks of social distancing and it has been humbling.
This is the time to find out who you are, your hobbies, interests, stuff that make you a unique human being (or whatever). What I learned during social distancing (or quarantine, depends where you live) is that I love baking, reading makes the time go by really fast, I can run more than a block, and without a gym, I do more workouts. Its been an eye-opening experience.
Not only did I find myself but I decided to work on my career. My goal is to become a technical writer but with the lack of work and experience, I decided to make a personal blog. I wanted this personal blog to express my feelings towards situations. My breakup this year is probably one of the topics I’ll constantly look back on.
I reflect on it a lot because it did push me to be a better person as a whole. I know some people spiral for a month–not getting out of bed, missing school and/or work, not taking care of themselves, just letting themselves go. But, I just couldn’t do that. Not saying I was okay during this time. I wasn’t. I had insane panic attacks, severe situational depression, and almost did something permanent.
At the time I just pushed myself to maintain my normal life, just minus one. That minus one rocked my world and not in a good way. I missed some classes, left periodically to subside my panic attacks, and broke down at work. Now, pro-tip, don’t watch BoJack Horseman during a rough time. The show amplifies every feeling you’re feeling except the good ones.
“And it breaks your heart, again…after your heart was so broken that you thought it could never get any more broken.” Diane Nguyen, BoJack Horseman, Season 5 Episode 2
But don’t worry, Diane realizes she’s gonna be good being alone. I realized that I’m gonna be good alone, today is my Diane moment.
My therapist would be proud and SHE IS!
Okay, time to write about something else. This horse is long dead.
It is never easy to make a difficult decision, but you can do it. There is no rush into making the tough decision (unless its life-changing). Talk about it, write it out, and take your time before jumping into anything. Go at your time and your pace, you come first all the time no matter what the situation is.