Dear Diary,
I messed around with my best friend’s person for over a year and she had no idea. It started last year in the fall, my friend had a back to school party, before the school year officially began and so that is how I met said person. I was just minding my business, we were all having fun, and her person walks in. That was the first time I had ever physically seen him. Prior to that moment he was only brought up in brief conversations between my friend and I (again, no indication that he was her person). So, throughout the night, said person was hanging out with my friend and then we all started playing a game of charades, during which this guy had added himself to my Snapchat. I thought nothing of it and added him and then a few days later I get a message from this person just asking me the basic, “How are you, what are you doing today?” type of questions. We exchanged numbers and began texting back and forth every day, every chance we both had.
Fast forward to a month or so later around midterms.  He came over to my house and we talked for hours until we went to grab a bite to eat and then we came back to my place and sat on the couch and watched movies.  After that day, we started hanging out more frequently, he even met a few of  my other friends from back home who were visiting me. It started as just being complete strangers to then spending the whole summer with him.
Then, one random summer night my friend calls me and asks if anything had happened between me and her person (at this point she has now told me that they had been seeing each other and that it was pretty serious) and I lied and told her no. I then find out from his brother (who is a close friend of mine and I had no idea was related to him) that the night of the party his ulterior motive was to try and get with me. The very next day I sent my friend a fairly long text (because I was terrified of admitting my wrong to her over the phone) telling her everything, from the hangouts to the information I found out from his brother. My friend wasn’t so quick to forgive me and I knew why, I didn’t feel good about what I was doing, I wasn’t proud of it, but it had happened. She then told me she was hurt and devastated and that she thought it was best if we put our friendship on hold which I also understood and I was oddly okay with it. Of course I was little bit sad because friend breakups are never easy but I had no regrets.
I knew it was a very stupid thing to do….but you can’t help who you fall in love with. It’s not something you can control. It just hits you without any warning or any signs and I was willing to risk my friendship with my BEST friend for that. For love. Â
-anonymous