With less than five weeks until graduation, I can’t help but question where life is going to take me. AS excited as I am to end my journey in college, lord knows I have a lot of built up anxiety within me asking for some sort of hint into what is next in this life. Classes, Internships and this job that I hold are the only reason I haven’t completely zoned out of this world and asked for time to stop as I try to figure out my next move.
My family always tell me to trust the process, put all your faith in the lord hands and keep on moving. It’s easier said than done. I look at those who are in such in a hurry and tell them, “Enjoy this moment. Enjoy this time that you have as a child because when it’s over, it’s over and all you have left is that moment in your heart.” Months ago, I was saying “UGH I can’t wait to leave.” Now I’m literally looking for something that can give me more time.”
College is more than just 4-years of school. It’s a growth phase where you discover a side of yourself that you would have never thought to come on. I appreciate the time that I have had a college student because I can look back at how I was before college and reflect on the growth, not just as a woman but as a human walking amongst society. I can honestly say these have been some of the greatest years in my life, but I’m afraid for it to end.
Classes, classmates, finals, parties, roommates, and heartbreaks, all those things that I complained about make me smile thinking about it now because they brought a different lesson to me. They brought me through days of sadness and sorrow to days of happiness and smiles.
I know this feeling is a normal one and thinking about it makes me think about the transition moments that I faced in life before. How I struggled, but I made it through. So I am hoping that this transition phase is one for the books, but until then, let me just enjoy this moment while I have it.