Has anyone else noticed a shift in their personality since the start of COVID? I’m not just talking about general maturation or growing up. Something has fundamentally changed in me, and I haven’t been able to quite place it. I’ve started to realize that I don’t have an interest in the things I used to; I’m disinterested, and my attention span has shrunk to almost nothing. I have begun making a list of things I used to love that no longer interest me or that I can’t seem to sit through:
- Traveling/Leaving my home
It’s a bit heartbreaking to see the way that the pandemic has affected myself and others. I’m less social and more anxious. My mom is trying to make all of these travel plans for the next year or so, and I want to care so badly. Every bone in my body wants to stay in bed all day; and it’s not in a depressed way, either. I know that feeling very well, of wanting to stay in bed because you’re depressed. This is so different. This just feels empty. I know it sounds so morbid, but other people have to be feeling this way as well in some capacity. I think we were all just indoors for so long that we don’t know how to be people anymore.
I went to see a movie in theaters for the first time in 3 years last week, and I could barely sit through it. While the movie was amazing, I wanted to leave the whole time. My time just feels better spent at home these days, and it’s hard to pretend I’m interested in doing things. If anyone has any recommendations or words of comfort, I’d love to hear them. I’m even more interested in if anyone else has been experiencing the same thing in the last few years… I hope that something piques my interest soon, and I hope that everyone is finding joy in small things.
Thanks for reading, as always.