Everyday I miss you.
I do not think there is a time or a place where you do not come into my head. I had to go through some of life’s biggest and most memorable times without you. When I was 11 you left us and nothing has been the same since. Prom wasn’t the same because you weren’t there to take pictures with. Graduation wasn’t the same because you were not there to see me walk across that field. I did it all for you. It killed me that you could not be there though. When I started my college career, you were not there again. I chose nursing because I knew it would make you the proudest. Although you were not physically there for all of those events I know you were there in spirit. As my guardian angel, you watched from the best seat up in heaven. You were my best friend. You were my caregiver. You were my everything in life. I used to love when you would play with my hair and tickle my arm. I loved when you would play “make believe” with me. I loved when you would make me my favorite snacks. There was not a time spent with you that I did not love. I’m sorry our time got cut short. I remember when you were really sick and scared. You did not want to leave us. I did not want you to leave us either. But I know when you visit me in my dreams, it’s you telling me everything will be okay. Thank you. Thank you for believing in me when no one else did. Thank you for watching me, when no one else could. Thank you for being the best role model I could have. Thank you for always leading me to the right path. When I look above I always think of you. I know you are always there because I can feel your presence. When it’s the middle of the day and you pop into my head, I know that you are nearby. Some days are still harder than others. I still cry even though I know you would hate seeing me cry over you.
One more thing, I hope I am making you as proud as I can while you are up in heaven. I do everything for you. I hope you look out for me as much as I think you. I hope you hear me talking to you when times get rough. I know it’s a lot but you are the only one that ever understood me. I hope you understand my mistakes. I hope when I make them you lead me into the right direction. I love you always and I know you are always behind me in whatever I do. Please do not worry, I will always remember your famous words…
“Sticks and stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me.”
Never forget me,
The one who misses you most