Is it just me or is it hard to make new friends? I mean it is so hard to connect with the right people. What do I do? How do I go about it? Just walk up to someone and say “Hey lets be friends?”. I don’t think it works like that, and even if it did my social anxiety won’t let me. I have been going to club meetings but haven’t been able to connect with anyone. Everyone already has their set friend groups already and I just feel like a disrespectful outsider trying to infiltrate a group.
When I am out in a social setting it is terrifying. I feel anxiety about having to go out by myself, and then I feel anxiety about where I’m going to sit. This build-up of overthinking cause my blood pressure to go up, next I can’t breathe, and then I am hyperventilating. I really don’t know how to overcome it. When I did find someone I want to befriend, I get these strong thoughts that probably won’t come to fruition regardless, they are crippling. I start thinking “What if she is mean?”, “What if we have nothing in common?”, “How do I make this person my friend?”.
I know that building friendships take time but I just find it very hard to keep relationships and friendships because of my depression and anxiety. I have one really good friend, (not that I am complaining), but my friend is graduating. I don’t know what I’m going to do when she leaves. I guess I’ll just keep trying I have to get over this anxiety and make a friend at some point.