Change. Everyone goes through it, all the time. Most people have grown accustomed to change in their lives, but me, I hate change. Change comes with uncertainty and anxiety in my life and I find it hard to mentally cope with big changes.
Currently I am going through a huge change of lifestyle: college. I’m currently a freshman and just starting Thanksgiving break. I could not be happier to be coming home to a familiar place with familiar faces. College has been the biggest transition I have ever gone through. For me, it’s been pretty rough since I don’t like not knowing what my surroundings are and not feeling comfortable in familiarity.
What I have learned in my three months away from home is that home is still there. It’s crazy to think that home has also been changing while I’ve been away: my brothers are growing up, my younger friends are taking my spot as the seniors in high school, and new people are being hired at my job all while I am here in Boston. Throughout all the changes at home, I have talked to my mom every day. To be honest, even though little changes are happening, for the most part home is still the same.
I’m super excited to be home for the holidays and be comfortable in my own room again. I’ve been overwhelmed by a whole lifestyle change while I’m away from my hometown. My fear of change has kept me from diving head first into all Boston University has to offer. I have held on to my old friends so closely that I haven’t stepped out of my own bubble just yet.
However, I’m getting there and that’s what I have come to realize throughout this first semester. Change is good. Change is something to look forward to. Change means you are growing. That is why I’ve become content with my fear of change. I have realizes that the best way to grow and explore who you are is through change.
If everything always stayed the same, no one would grow. Growing up is the most exciting part of being a teenager. Sure, it’s pretty scary and intimidating, but we all have to do it ao we might as well all find some ways to make it fun. Fear isn’t something that one should hate, it is something we should all embrace.
My fear of change is something I am trying to embrace while I am away from home. The only way to step out of your comfort zone is to go through a period of growth and change which sounds scary, but I promise it will make you a stronger person.
When you conquer a fear, you feel empowered, like you are on top of the world. That is why I am so thankful for my fear of change, because when I am able to overcome it – even just a little bit – I feel a little bit stronger than I did before.