Dear My First Crush,
You don’t know that I like you. However, many people do. I’ll explain why I never told you in a minute, but I don’t want you to be afraid. I want to say thank you, because you were everything I could ask for in a first crush.
My feelings for you developed because of the way you treated me. Our first interaction was brief, as one of my good friends from orientation introduced you to me. We would meet again later that day at a dance lesson. Your fingers slid between mine and remember my heart skipping a beat. You glanced down at our linked hands and said, “That feels nice.” My heart almost exploded.
In the year to come, you would stand up for me. You would spread around that I was one of the nicest people and most dedicated member of all my clubs. You came and supported me whenever you could. You came to me when you needed advice and trusted me. When I learned that you started dating someone, I was hurt and distanced myself from you.
After a year of stifled feelings, I felt them creeping back when we coincidentally met abroad. You took such good care of me and helped me to open up again. It was at that moment I wanted to tell you how I felt. I almost did too. But I stopped myself. The next week, you asked me out. I honestly believe if we went to eat that day, we could have been a couple. But we had both changed since freshman year. I didn’t want to ruin my memory of you with the trials and tribulations of a relationship. I also didn’t think I could be the person you needed me to be. So I politely declined and we remained friends.
Now, I’m even more glad we didn’t date because you found someone who makes you happy. I think she can relate to you and do more for you than I could have and so I am grateful you have.
I still want to thank you. Thank you for raising my standard. Thank you for reminding me of my self worth. Thank you for opening up to me so I would learn to open up for others. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me (from tutoring to life advice). Thank you for saying hi every day, even now three years later.
Thank you for being the reason I found a wonderful guy because I knew where to look and what characteristics I needed in him. He had big shoes to fill because of you, my first crush.
Much Thanks,
xxx