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When I was a girl

My mother didn’t dress me in norms

She just couldn’t afford.

She bought me clothes that

Eventually my brothers would wear.

I always loved the color pink

But I played sports too.

I built Hot Wheels race tracks

And danced around in tutus.

I wasn’t concerned with the world’s perceptions.

I was my purest self

And that was good enough for me.

Then I got older

People started to see me differently.

I wasn’t one of the boys any more.

They thought my body was what defined me.

I hated what I saw in the mirror.

More than I ever did before.

I became a target

For harassment, catcalling, and worse.

I was 14 when a grown man told me how much he wanted to fuck me.

If only I wasn’t 14

My mother told me how womanly I looked, as if she was jealous of her daughter.

I never wanted this body

I just wanted to climb the trees with my friends.

Not to be seen only through the lens of the femininity that lives in my physical body.

Because although that is who I am

I am also my masculinity.

It lives in the way I talk and the way I dress

It’s in the way I sit and the way I move.

And just because you can call me “she”

Doesn’t mean I’m more comfortable in a skirt than a baggy tee

So before you reduce to me down to my physical being

How about you take a moment to find the means

To speak to the mind inside 

The figure you see.

Raina is a college senior studying Psych and Music at SUNY Albany. She is originally from Queens and her biggest creative inspirations come from daily life in the city. Feel free to contact her at [email protected]
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