My girlfriend and I started dating a little over a year ago, but the more I find out about her, the more I realize how strong and resilient she is. She has faced a lot of challenges in her life and she has always pushed through to overcome them. There is nothing that the universe could throw at her that she wouldn’t be able to handle. Sadly, this was put to the test early on in our relationship.
I always say she found me at the best and worst time. I was ready to love, but wasn’t in a great state mentally. I needed someone to come and save me, and save me she did. This time in our lives saw a lot of pain and struggle. For me, it was one of the hardest times of my life. I lived every day in pain, sadness, depression, and anxiety. I know it was hard for me, but now that we’re out of the tunnel and are looking back, I can finally see how much pain my pain caused her.
Not many people would stay by someone’s side through so much pain, struggle, and hardship, but my girlfriend chose to stay by me and hold my hand through it all. I pride her for her strength. She was my rock through it all and I know that was not easy. She stood with so much strength and never left my side. She was my shoulder to cry on (repeatedly), the person who gave me as much love as she possibly could, held me when I was scared, and held my hand through it all.
She worried about me more than anyone had before. She had to live in a constant state of fear. Fear of losing me and fear of the unknown. None of it was easy and I know every day she had to wake up with that fear. I never wanted to put her through this, even though I know she actively chose to stay with me. I was a lot and I had a lot of baggage, but she saw all of that and never ran, not once.
She was never deterred from my pain and struggles and never for one second thought to leave. She stood by my side through hell or high water, choosing this journey with me. There are not many people who can say that they have someone like that in their lives, but I am the luckiest girl in the world to have a girlfriend like that.
When I felt like no one wanted me or loved me, she talked me off the edge, doing and saying anything in her power to get through to me. When I wouldn’t want to talk or know what to say, she was there with all the support she could give. She sent me long paragraphs telling me how important I was and how much she loved me.
I caused her a lot of tears, though. I know there were so many days she cried watching me in pain. I know seeing me in pain was hard for her and she didn’t have an outlet to release her pain. I know I put her through a lot of trauma and I’m honestly shocked she even stayed. When it all started she was seventeen. Not many seventeen-year-olds are strong enough or brave enough to voluntarily take on this kind of pain and struggle- but she did because she is the strongest person I know.
Babe, if you’re reading this (which I know you are, you read all of my articles), you are my rock and the strongest person I know. I know you think I’m the strong one for going through all of this but you’re even stronger for staying around. You saved me, pulled me out of my darkest moment, and helped me see the light at the end of the tunnel. I will forever be grateful for everything you have done for me and given to me. You have given me love in a way I never thought was possible. You have proven to me that there are amazing people in the world, and you are one of them. I love you with all my heart. I am so glad the world can see you the way I do: the strongest and most resilient person.