If thereâs one person we can think of who seems carefree and comfortable in her own skin, itâs probably Jennifer Lawrence. But the Oscar-winning Hunger Games star, who has quickly become a household name and one of the worldâs most sought-after actresses, showed a more vulnerable side in a recent interview with The New York Times. She admitted that she doesnât always feel quite as confident as her larger-than-life personality might suggest.
When asked about how sheâs changed in the few short years since she achieved worldwide fame, she responded: âI donât feel like Iâm being dragged by anything anymore. I feel more in control. Iâm calmer. I know that thereâs no point to feeling anxious all day, so I try not to. Iâm still scared, but itâs about different things. Now, I worry about â [Trails off and shifts a bit uncomfortably on the sofa.] O.K., get ahold of yourself, Jennifer. This is not therapy.â
Her interviewer, Brooks Barnes, prompted her to continue. âYou want to know how Iâve changed? Iâm so scared to say anything now. I can see every negative way that people can take it, and I donât want to sound like Iâm complaining. âOh, sheâs so conceited now. Oh, sheâs so jaded now.â It probably comes from Googling myself. If it were up to me, I would not talk. I would just act.â
Wait, Jennifer Lawrence Googles herself? Isnât that, like, the number one thing most celebrities say they shouldnât and wonât do? âYou try being 22, having a period and staying away from Google,â she said. âI once Googled âJennifer Lawrence Ugly.â [Laughs] Do I sound bitchy?â
Honestly, though, who hasnât Googled themselves, or taken any extra measure just to try and find out what people think of them? Itâs like when Formspring was all the rage in middle schoolâwe all knew that by signing up we were just asking for hurt feelings and information weâd end up wishing we never knew, but we couldnât resist. Perhaps the destructive behavior is not our need to know how people truly see usâgood, bad, or uglyâalthough we certainly wish we could go without it. Perhaps itâs peopleâs need to share their opinions about othersâoften people they donât even really knowâon a public forum like the Internet. What does anyone have to gain from calling Jennifer Lawrence, or anyone else for that matter, âuglyâ?
So, in answer to your question, Jennifer: no, you donât sound bitchy at all. Itâs how anyone in the world would react to being scrutinized to such an extreme levelâand most of us wouldnât handle it as well as you do. âIâm going to leave here and think, Oh God, why couldnât I just have been cool and confident?â she said of the interview. But take it from us, J-Law, itâs candid, genuine, grounded moments like these that make you the absolute coolest.