As we move into the warm, comforting months of spring and start to feel the sun on our faces, I can’t help but feel something good is about to happen. I am a junior at Hampton University about to turn 21, and in my early twenties, I feel as though I have already learned so much about myself. Things that I have been told as a child by my parents but refused to listen to, so instead had to learn it the hard way on my own—things about myself, self-love, relationships, my career, and future aspirations.
And let me tell you, after some of the hardest past three months I have experienced, I can’t help but feel something is big is coming my way. Like that expression in the Bible, Mark 4:35-40 “peace be still,” well sad to say that I’ve been through one of the biggest storms I have faced in my life so far, and finally I am starting to see peace. Understanding that I can’t do everything on my own and have to let God bring me through it. Heartache is something that no one should go through but is necessary for their growth. But even still, people are so afraid to talk about it out of shame or privacy.
Using this platform, I am proud to say that I am making it through my storm. Some of which I can accredit to being optimistic and a dash of delusional in order to get through the day. But that’s my process: believing that everything has a purpose for me and that God has given me obstacles to power through.
It’s almost crazy how we are only three months into this new year, and already so much has happened, but that only tells me that I have nine more months to make the most of it. Ticking those boxes off my bucket list that I have never done, going a little crazy once in a while and having no regrets, and taking pictures of it along the way so I can never forget. Either way, I want to make sure that with this coming new weather, I am able to shed my winter layer of self-doubt and overthinking and just live life in the sun. Going back a little to doing old habits that made me feel free and at my happiest. Feeling as if nothing matters because, at this point, everything that is meant for me will come to me in due time.
I have had many highs and many lows this year. I have loved and lost those who I care about the most in my life. But at least I am seeing that when it feels as if nothing is working out, there is always a higher plan for you. I may not be able to see it now, but it is there waiting for me when I am ready. And I can’t wait till that time comes.