This article is written by a student writer from the Her Campus at Bryant chapter and does not reflect the views of Her Campus.
It’s been a while. I haven’t talked to you or contacted you in some time because I don’t want to hurt you any longer. I constantly wonder how you are and if you have found it in your heart to forgive me. I hurt you a long time ago, and I will live with that regret for the rest of my life.Things weren’t what they could have been, and I realize now it was me who was in the wrong. You gave it your all and I never realized this.
Some days I find myself wondering what you are up to, and if you ever think about what I’m doing. How are your classes going? How is your mom? Are you enjoying where life is at? Is college making you happy? These are some questions I would ask if I got the chance to speak with you again.You treated me amazingly. Too amazing. I took you for granted and now that you are gone I see where I went wrong. Everything I wanted, you gave me. I never reciprocated. You deserve way more than I ever offered you, and if I could go back and change what I did to hurt you, I would do so in a heartbeat.I think about it now and wish I could take it all back. You were my best friend, I loved your family and I loved all of the time I spent with you. Don’t ever think I didn’t. That is one thing I don’t ever want you to question, because I truly enjoyed our relationship and I loved you as a person.
I hope you are doing well and that school is all you wished for it to be. I hope that you found a girl that truly loves you and wants to spend every minute of the day with you. Don’t ever look back and follow your dreams because I know one day you will be living the life you have always wanted. One day I hope I will see you again, and I will know that you are happy, that you have found the right life for yourself. You will thrive in the job of your dreams and travel the world endlessly, because that is what you have always wanted. Know that you have an amazing personality, a giving heart, and a generous way about you that will get you far in life. Know that all I did to you will haunt me continuously, and that none of it was ever fair to you.
Do not take life for granted because it can slip out of your fingertips at any moment. I should have realized this before I had already let you go. I was stupid, selfish and naive. I didn’t think about how you felt and that is something I still regret to this day. I will regret it for the rest of my life, because I know it left a lasting impact on you. I blame myself for everything and I hope that soon enough we can look back and forgive. I know you will never forget, I know the hurt that you still feel. We have been without each other this past year, soon your birthday will come and I won’t know whether to call you. I miss your family, I hope they are doing well and I hope you are doing well too. Enjoy all that life has to offer you and be the gentlemen I know deep down you are. I hope one day you will be willing to accept me back into your heart as a friend.
Good luck in life, you will go far. Best wishes.