You Should Have Waited

I should have waited…

I should have waited until you knew my last name.

I should have waited until you asked me what I liked to do in my free time and how school was going for me.

I should have waited for that fourth mixed drink, that was far too strong, to wear off.

I should have waited until I was the one taking my own clothes off.

I should have waited until I took you home to meet my parents.

I should have waited until I made you fully aware of how scared I was that you would leave. They all do.

I should have waited… I should have waited…

Wait.

You…

You should have waited…

You should have waited until you knew my last name.

You should have waited until we were both sober.

You should have waited until I was conscious and able to give you consent.

You should have waited until I said “yes” and not “no.”

You should have waited until it was consensual sex, not rape.