I’m already close to a month into starting my senior year at the University of Kansas. Now, I am a journalism major with a minor in education. Granted, this is apparently a weird combination for students to study. I didn’t realize it until I met other students, who judged me a little bit for it.
I will start by telling you what happened. I found out yesterday that I was going to be live in-studio for the first time ever. Now, to give you some background, I had never done broadcasting before my senior year in college. This was a scary and wild experience.
My story idea had apparently impressed the other professor. Once she told me about this opportunity it made me feel really nervous. Without seeing me, you probably wouldn’t have believed how nervous I was.
This experience taught me that there’s more to life than just partying and working. I felt like a mad woman if I am being completely honest. I missed my first class of the day so that I could focus on this live in-studio performance, aka stand-up. In the broadcasting world, there are so many different words used that I still haven’t figured out.
I went into that room feeling confident but extremely nervous when I was being mic-ed up for the first time. This made me realize that this was becoming a reality. I was able to have my grandmother and my mother watch the entire broadcast just to see me on television.
It was the first time that I was on television and honestly, I felt like I blew it. Although I was told that I did well, it honestly didn’t feel like it.
There are so many elements that go on both behind and in front of the camera. It’s a learning experience every single day. As a senior, I feel like the most unexperienced person in the room. I understand that people think this is normal, but in my opinion, it doesn’t feel like it.
It just felt unbelievable that I was the first person who filmed a live in studio. I felt like I had to set the bar for what was going to happen next. Especially for the next person who films a stand-up.
I enjoy all the support from my classmates, but it feels like I shouldn’t need it. I really can’t tell you why I feel this way.
In a just a couple of months, I will be leaving this university. I am so excited, but I am also going to cry my heart out because it still doesn’t feel real. I am a little bit nervous about my future career. I want to enjoy my life and pursue my future career.
P.S. Please help me find a job in the future! I am looking but I am super nervous so let me know.