I love rainy days. There’s something about watching the rain pour down and cleanse everything from the inside of a cozy house, hiding under a warm blanket with a warm mug of tea. Rainy days are the days I allow myself to relax a little, to enjoy the weather and the comforting sound of rain hitting the windows and the ground.
As I huddle inside, I have time to think and just be alone with my thoughts – a stark contrast to the usually business of my home and York. I think about what I want, what I don’t want, and how those things compare to my life in its current state.
But more importantly, I have the time to just be without pressure from anyone to act or think a certain way. Lately it seems like everyone has an opinion of how I should feel and act. It seems everything I do warrants some unsolicited opinion or another. So when I have a day to just be and not tell anyone what I’m doing, it’s nice. I don’t like to be alone too often, but every once in a while it’s nice to be the version of me that comes most naturally.
We recently got cable again after at least ten years of not having it. It’s weird knowing that my entertainment selection isn’t just limited to whatever Netflix and the most basic version of DramaFever has. But today I’m just slowly working through some readings and articles, binge-watching whatever shows I can find, and doing my own thing.
It’s important that every once in a while we take time to be ourselves without anyone trying to influence us. It’s important to at least figure out what version of ourselves we feel most comfortable in, even if we don’t exactly know who we are yet. So take that time, find your own “rainy days” and just sink into your own head, and do what feels right or the most comfortable for you. You deserve it.