The New Year has finally come. The New Year always brings promises we attempt to keep: to be better, to try harder and to be happier. Yet throughout the years, I have realized that no matter how many promises I make nothing will change unless I leave behind certain habits or traits that bring me down. Therefore here are the five things that I am leaving behind in 2019:
- Doubting myself
I am leaving behind doubting myself. In 2020 and beyond, I am determined to stick to my gut, to listen to my needs and have faith in the fact that I know what is best for me. If I don’t respect my decisions enough to listen to them, how do I ever expect others to listen to my needs and take them seriously.
I am leaving behind procrastination. Procrastination has always been an issue of mine, yet I have never attempted to get rid of it. But in this new year and decade, I will try to not procrastinate. I will get rid of my bad habit and try to apply myself to the best of my ability in getting my assignments done early and putting my all into them.
- Not doing what I want to do
I am leaving behind not doing what I want to do. I have learned that I am happiest when I do what I want. This new year I want to focus on choosing the options I want regardless if they aren't cool, regardless if they aren’t the most popular choice and regardless if I have to do them alone.
- The belief that I'm not good enough
I am leaving behind the belief that I’m not good enough. This trait goes in hand with doubting myself, but I need to stop believing that I am not good enough. I need to start saying I am more than enough, and I deserve good things to come my way.
- Being afraid to be alone
Finally, I am leaving behind being afraid to be alone. I have always had a fear of being alone, that being alone was a negative thing or a bad trait. But I have learned throughout the years that being alone is important. We need to be comfortable being alone with ourselves to discover things. In the new year and the new decade, I will try to do more things with just myself, because I would like to get to know her.
Whether you are picking up a new hobby, being a better version of yourself or just vowing to be happier in the new year/decade, just focus on yourself and know that there is no right way to do anything - we are all out here figuring everything out step by step. You will figure it all out! Happy New Year/Decade, make the best out of it!