I am about to turn 20 and I must admit, I feel like a 12-year-old: not only on the inside but also on the outside. I am constantly told by every single person I meet, who is over 40, that I look like a 14-year-old. On the other hand, I get told that I act too mature for my age and that I should be out having fun and living the college experience.
I feel like such an old soul sometimes that I question why I can’t be like other college students. After reflecting on it, I see three reasons why: 1) that I am a college student with no money, 2) I am too sleep deprived to think about going out and having fun and 3) I am too calm of a person to care about the pagan things college has to offer. I guess I am just too much of a hermit. In the words of Belle, “I want much more than this provincial life.” I want to focus on working hard right now and enjoy later when the fruits of my labor have finally blossomed.
To further show that I am not ready to be 20 years old, I have made a list of random “what if” questions I have had throughout life and have yet to find the answers to. Warning: they do not even make sense.
- What if there was no gravity? *Jumps everywhere
- What if coffee was never discovered? *Drops out of college
- What if life was fair? How boring!
- What if we could time travel?
- What if our toes were our fingers and our fingers our toes? Ew
- What if I shaved off my eyebrows? I actually do not want the answer to this.
- What if I never find love? Well… I have come this far *shrugs
- What if I become invisible?
- What if I become invincible? How nice, *sighs
- What if Peter Pan came right now and took me to Neverland? Please do.
- What if our dreams are reality and our reality our dreams, we just have them mixed up?
- What if Eve never ate the forbidden fruit?
- What if we could never lie? *Chaos everywhere
- What if I get nowhere in life?
- What if everything is meaningless?
- What if I was born in a completely different country?
- What if everything I speak was broadcasted nationwide? Oh dear…
- What if I could only speak a foreign language all of a sudden, one I don’t understand?
- What if I never find the answers to these questions?
- What if I never stop having questions?