My Biggest Inspiration: Myself

Let me first say, no, I'm not conceited, egocentric, nor self-centered.

But I am confident enough to say that I am really my biggest inspiration.

I’m 19 years old, and I know many others have dealt with situations way worse than mine, but with all the things that have happened in my life, I have always handled everything in the best way I could at the time.

Especially this last month, my mental and physical state have been at such a low, probably the worst it’s been in my life ever, and now, April 2nd of 2020, I feel proud to be the person I have become.

Being diagnosed with Pneumonia, texting my ex, one of my family members causing issues, moving back home because of Miss Rona, losing friendships, and even just sorority events I was looking forward to, these things have caused an immense amount of stress to my life, and I haven’t really been able to talk deeply about all these things with anyone, and I feel like that’s what has done me good, honestly.

I have major trust issues, I am definitely not afraid to get that out there, and I’m actually insecure about myself in a lot of things, but with this quarantine, it has given me the time and chance to delve deep into my psyche all by myself.

I have learned to keep to myself more, to keep my things private. I’ve started to paint more, read more, plant, journal, relax more. That’s something I thought I’d never say really. If you know me personally you’ll know that I am pretty much stressed 100% of the time. Meditation is great! Man, I should write about all the things I’m doing during this quarantine…

I believe I’ve really changed for the better, and I am excited to get to know myself again.

I’m just really working on me & the relationships with those closest to me, and that’s tea.