Courtney A. Walsh once said, “Dear Human: You’ve got it all wrong. You didn’t come here to master unconditional love. That is where you came from and that is where you will return. You came here to learn personal love. Universal love. Messy love. Sweaty love. Crazy love. Broken love. Whole love. Infused with divinity. Lived through the grace of stumbling. Demonstrated through the beauty of messing up. Often. You didn’t come here to be perfect. You already are. You are here to be gloriously human. Flawed and fabulous. And then to rise again into remembering.”
I’ve made decisions that were rational and irrational, emotional and unemotional, selfish and selfless. Instead of fighting an inner battle that could have gone on forever, I took a lot of time to process, grieve, reflect, accept, love, and surrender. Instead of looking back and having regrets, I choose to look at my failures and experiences as life lessons moving forward. My past: the good and the bad, is a collection of moments that I can now look back and smile at. Every moment was a gift. Every moment is and will be a gift. Where there were tears, anger, contemplation, and pain, there was also laughter, joy, and times where I thought to myself, “I never want to leave this moment behind.”
I process the times where I thought I could do better, make someone else better, make myself better, and ultimately failed. I grieve the moments where I’ve hurt people, and people have hurt me. I reflect on the minutes where I should have, could have, would have. I accept the times where I’ve slipped up, and misunderstood. I love the instants where you just feel… loved – by friends, family, or even the ambience around you. But overall I surrender to all the times in life where you just can’t change things – you can’t change people, blunders, who you are, and ultimately how you truly feel, because people, blunders, and feelings all have one thing in common – timing. Everyone else is on a certain part of their own journey in life and maybe you’re further ahead or further behind, but what I can sincerely say is that nothing can be reversed or rushed or recovered. Not everyone will process, grieve, reflect, accept, love, or surrender, but you are here to be gloriously human.