Back in March when the world was shut down and we were all thrown into a worldwide quarantine, I went into quarantine at home with my family and in a happy and serious relationship. Two weeks into being safely in my home I was caught off guard when my boyfriend broke up with me. To say I was confused was an understatement because I, still to this day, do not know why the relationship ended and anytime I asked questions the answer that I heard was “I don’t know.”
Thankfully, I had my mom, dad, and brother around to comfort me, but I am the type of girl that doesn’t like to show any emotion other than happiness to my friends or family. The days and weeks following the breakup were spent laying in my mom’s bed, crying, going to Zoom class, watching movies, and talking to my mom. Going through that with my mom was hard because I knew my mental and emotional state hurt and worried her and she knew that I needed my best friends to help get me through this. My best friends have been by my side since second grade and they helped as much as they could in our group chat, FaceTime calls, and, once it was allowed, we went to our old softball field sat on blankets 6 feet apart with masks and talked for hours. It killed them that they couldn’t hug me, come over and sit with me and watch movies, eat ice cream, or go out like a normal girl would after a breakup. But as everyone told me, as time went on everything would get better. I started talking to some more of my friends about it and I moved back into my house at school with my best friend from college.
Some days, yes, are tougher than others but most days I am doing great and I realized that I am still the same woman as before a relationship, if not better! I still loved myself and who I was which was something a boyfriend could never take away from me even when I gave my all in that relationship. Being with my friends, family, and also, at times, alone made me realize I have so many people that have my back throughout everything. I’ve also learned how to be there for myself and how to be the strong independent woman that I knew and loved before I was in a relationship. Throughout my time of being single now, I have gained so many new friends and found more things about myself, including my flaws, that I love and would never give up for a boyfriend.