I did not want a boyfriend when I went away to college. I was not into the commitment of it, and I set these rules up in my head about how I was not going to be with someone and was just going to focus on me. I was nervous to get hurt and to hurt someone else. But you see, in spite of that, there was also this one person that I was just kinda a little bit secretly in love with.
He had these great blue eyes and curly, dirty blonde hair. I was drawn to him in every way and we spent almost all of our time together. He had truly become my best friend, which I know makes it even more cliche because of my feelings for him, but it’s the truth. He made me feel ways I truly had not before. He was sweet, charming and never would do a cruel thing to anyone. He was patient and kind and almost as perfect as some of my favorite book characters, and they were pretty damn near perfect.
A few weeks after we graduated high school, we were out at “Tractor Supply,” and he was trying on some farmer overalls that were way too big on him because he thought it was funny. Don’t ask me why that moment sparked this in my head, because I don’t know, but as he put on big overalls I realized I wasn’t going to be able to get over this boy no matter what I did.
I felt so happy with him and I felt more myself with him than anyone. I longed to be with him, but I had these rules in my mind.There were some other factors here that made me accept we would never be together, but that is not the moral of what I am writing today.
To my surprise late that night he confessed his feelings for me. He felt the same way that I secretly did for almost all of senior year. I swear that my heart shot right out of my chest into billions of little sparkles and rose petals and butterflies and all the other cheesy romantic crap when he told me this confession.
Fast forward to the end of summer and there I was in a committed relationship about to go away to college. I then realized that I broke my stupid rules I had made in my head for him. But I am so so happy that I broke my own rules because it led me to my happiest life.
Now here we are, both Sophomores in college and dating for over a year and I am so thankful that I took a leap and accepted the fact that I was in love with him. I am in a happy healthy relationship with my best friend at 19 years old and I could not be happier that the guy from my senior year math class has now become my partner in life with me. So bring it on world, I have the best team mate by my side (I may tend to break some rules though.)