I couldn’t find it in my new pair of shoes I struggled to walk in all night
Or the uncomfortable dress that made me feel like a stranger in my own body
I couldn’t find it in my red lipstick colored smile
I couldn’t find it on the fastest rollercoasters
Filled with screams and laughter, yet I had no smile
Am I missing something?
I couldn’t find it in my friends
The genuine smiles they seemed to share
I feel stuck to the wall like glue, unable to move and share their moments
I couldn’t find it in the weather
Even the sun seemed to shine on everyone but me
I couldn’t find it on TV
Showing lives of others’ I thought I needed to replicate
Instead I found it at the beach
In the seashells I collected and the smell of salt in the air
I found it in the mountains
Where the air is most clear and I feel one with the earth
I found it in my books
Where the words of those who have touched many lives inspired me to be better
Happiness is not supposed to be a constant state of being
Sometimes it is too difficult to choose to be happy, when the world is at its worst
But one thing I have learned is that the journey to be happy was the best choice I’ve ever made