Exhaustion. Overwhelmed. Anxious. Happy. Depressed. Worthlessness. Self-hate. Proud. Tired. Doubtful. Me
In my last article for the insecurities series, I said I would tell you about what I had found out. I had written an article in the past about my PCOS. This is what changed the game. Not only do I have PCOS, but I also have hypothyroidism. This makes it hard to lose weight for me. This is my biggest insecurity. I wish I could go to stores and get that shirt I love, or go anywhere without being looked up and down, or order food without feeling bad about myself. Finding out that the reason why is because of my disease is eye-opening and heartbreaking. I feel like I will never be skinny and feel good about myself. All I can think about is that I am going to be a doctor. I have never seen a fat doctor. How can I influence people on health if I look like this? This is what kills me and eats me at night. PCOS has made me feel disgusting and proud, depressed, and human. I have really bad downs during this time and I am happy I made it through them. I hope others with this disease know that we all feel like this. Like I said we are human. I am always here to talk to anyone struggling and if anyone just wants a friend to relate to I am here.
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DM me if you feel like this because nobody should ever feel like this! You are loved, don’t feel like you are bothering me.
