Masturbation is kind of an awkward subject, right? Well, it’s honestly something that shouldn’t be so taboo. Getting to know yourself a little better isn’t anything you should be ashamed of. That being said I was really afraid of it for a majority of my life and only recently did I start my journey into this “self-discovery.”
For me, it started with a simple trip to Spencers. I had always been terrified to go in, thinking someone I knew would see me, maybe someone from work or church. But after I found a really good friend I was comfortable with I finally made the journey inside. We stopped to look at some of the body jewelry and band t-shirts for a little while, essentially me stalling, before we finally made it to the good stuff in the back
At first, it was a little overwhelming. There was so much! Everything I could have imagined and sooooo much more. Thankfully, my friend wasn’t as overwhelmed with the inventory as I was. She simply asked me what kinds of things I was interested in trying and then asked me how much I was willing to spend on something. I, of course, being the broke college student that I am, had a budget of about $20. Surprisingly we found a really great starter kit that was right in my budget!
The kit came with a miniature vibrator and a little bullet as well as some warming massage lotion. I also picked up a bottle of toy cleaner because you’ve got to keep that stuff sanitized. I made my way up to the cashier and sheepishly awaited my total and the silent judgment he was bound to give. However, much to my surprise things weren’t awkward at all! The guy held a conversation with me and my friend and didn’t even bat an eye at what I was buying. I was in and out without any trouble.
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When I finally made it home I can’t deny that I was pretty excited to try things out. I set the mood for myself and kicked my cat out of my room and let the self-discovery begin. It wasn’t long before I had figured out what and how exactly my body liked. After I finally orgasmed for the first time I was actually pretty shocked at the way it felt. It wasn’t like in the movies, there was no screaming, I wasn’t clutching onto the sheets for my life or anything like that, but it definitely felt good. It wasn’t like anything I had really ever experienced and I’m extremely glad that I faced my fear and decided to try it out.