I really enjoy writing the blogs for Her Campus. A big reason is because I can write what has been on my mind, what has inspired me recently, and well, basically I can write whatever I want. It’s really cool when I can share my thoughts and people connect with my message. So, let’s get this semester started.
When I left Wesleyan in December, I was already dreading the thought of coming back in 35 days. Forget Christmas and New Years, forget all the family and friends I was going to reconnect with, forget the rest I was going to get, forget the awesome job I was going to secure. Forget the lessons I would learn about myself, about others, and about the world. Forget the amazing boyfriend (UH, YEAH, you read right!) I would start a relationship with.
Close to the end of break, I got a morning off of work. I sat curled up in my blanket, with a big cup of coffee, and scrolled through Pinterest. While I was scrolling, I came across this picture-quote that said, “Tell the negative committee that meets inside your head to sit down and shut up.” Ann Bradford didn’t know when she made this quote how much it would resonate with me. I don’t think anyone really realizes how deeply words can affect us, but that’s a different topic for a different time.
I realized I was dreading life. I was depressed. I was allowing the Negative Committee to host their board meetings in my mind all day, every day. I let fear make its home in my heart. I was not doing anything to cut those meetings short, or to destroy the home I had let negativity and fear build.
Over the past month, what have you allowed to settle down in your mind? Have you been planting, watering, and harvesting love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, or self-control? Or have you been planting, watering, and harvesting hate, anger, hurt, bitterness, fear, short-temperedness, pain, excess, and other negativity? Take today and think about that. What have you been growing in your mind? What committee is holding board meetings in your mind and heart? Who have you been believing?
If you’re like me, and have let the negative committee run their meetings and fear create its home, identify what’s been scaring you and talk it out with a friend. Pray about it, and find a way to relax.
Then, CHANGE. STOP IT. Stop the negative thoughts, stop the fear. Just do it! If you realize you have been struggling like I have been and you want it to stop, sitting around and waiting for it to go away on its own is a waste time. You can make a better semester starting now! What are you waiting for? GO!