I remember when we would eat a huge dinner and finish homework and once we were tired, we would cuddle under the blanket and fall asleep in each other’s arms. I remember our Final Fantasy 15 nights and my first snow days. I remember the group dinners and spontaneous dates. I also remember the brownie and nestle tollhouse cookie days, the many mall dates, the sunny adventures, and the days where being at home with each other was just enough. That’s how my (our) 2017 started. Then halfway through, those days were pretty much over.
I had to remember what life was like without you with me 24/7 and just on a computer screen or phone. I had to remember that there were other people I loved aside from you that I could reach out to. And once we said our first “see you later,” I really had to learn how to be me again.
I remember leaving the home that I thought would be mine forever and the emotional pain I went through everyday because of it. I remember the many nights I cried myself to sleep because once I had moved into another home, I suddenly had no one again. But once I started crying less and put my best foot forward, I learned how to push through my struggles. I learned how despite the crap and the stress, pushing through one obstacle at a time is super rewarding in the end. I also learned that by opening myself up a little more, it was possible for me to feel more confident about making friends without help. I learned how to start over again.
While this year has definitely been a rough year for everyone including me, it’s safe to say that despite all of these negative moments in our lives, there’s always a way to get through them. Every new year is just a reminder that if we got through another year, we’re strong enough to get through the next. Every year is going to suck at one point or another, but if we at least see through the crap and see the things we’ve achieved in spite of it all, it makes pushing through another year worth it. Let 2017 and every year after that be a lesson to all of us that no matter what happens, every start of a new year is a time to reflect and start fresh. And I’m sure as hell ready to start fresh. Hope you all are, too! Happy New Year, everyone! Let’s hope for a great 2018 because 2017 was absolute crap.